you're holding me back .
you came back,i was so numb to do anything but to let you in again,i was wrong to do that
but i did you're just to special in my heart.

never look back no matter what happens even if you missed the past,just move on never regret with anything you do as it may STOP you from having a better future.~ from someone who cares.

i have not been updating my blog since like forever i know.hmmm...
well i'm toooo lazy to update uh...due to this stupid computer of mine...daddy said he wanted to change but idk when!urrgggghhh!

hmmm well okay lets have a long long grandnanny story okay,,hmmm.

13 june 2009 went SENTOSA-ing with e-family..welll okay we eat,swim and all well okay boys are behaving like hunks!hhas.as if! okay..after dat i went sakura-ing with parents.hmmm yummy!
~huda,umira,fasha,raden,wafi,safirah,zuhri,miqdad,rusydi,sharil,syafiqworld


17 june 2009 went out with exboify n frens...hmmm okay la went penin den vivo...
welll hmmm NINI you know i know so shhh!ahhas.=)
~hilmi,syednasri,rahman,daniel,yasniza,mus,syafiq,sms.

18 june bestfren came over,did nthg but slack only,hmmm camwhored...den jp...send her to hockey village.n setoff home with fir...nnn yeah after dat..we went badminton-ing with adk n bibik.=)nite visit uncle at cck..just finish doing opeartion...
dearest uncle,i hope you get well soon.!love ya.=)

19 june went out with daddy n brother wanted to catch a movie but ending up eating pizza hut cause adk nn papa wanted to watch two different movie so avoid fighting we eat!ahahs.GEMOK!

Inconclusion 3aug09 is gone two years gone!!wth...hmm nvm I hope you're happy.now I'm gonna b independent I'm okay I'll b okay.you're just my past now.together I can manage.cry?got use meh!no.so move on la...hmm nthgwill be the same but I don't care.one day I'll b okay. Hmm making a conclusion I'm okay n I hate you, her.but not anymore,so I'll smile now."beautiful" she is correct.hahdiam suda.okay I guess day all hmm pnt la use Ipod touch.haha.
So update soon. Any nampak hot guy with brown eyes.he is way peeerrfect nn beautiful.hmmm 19.&to u to may stress k sayang.ill b here,ceehhhh!!haha. With love i fall for you,With courage I learn to forget you,with hope I moved on,with dissappointment you're not the one,with hurt I regret,and with feelings I'm gonna show I'm stronger den u tht.stay happy n smile.

Labels: just want things to work.

i wasnt sure why am i writing again.
but one thing for sure my life is torn apart.
i need to eat my own feelings up. =)

MY BLOGG IS DEAD ONCE AGAIN.

i've been such a lazy bumb and i've been such a emo freak.
idk what to blog anymore cause there too much to say but better left unsaid.
life is a knife that kills me slowly.


maybe just maybe if life isnt this bad and my heart didnt have a scar i'll be one of those girls whos always smiling.
i've no more reason to smile,mayb a fake smile will do.but nahh.. hmm..
should i just say my life is meaningless.

empty, lonely.

Dear diary, i knw i've been MIA-ing for a very long time. Im almost done with my olevel papers. And hell yeahh imm missing so much fun plus i miss my girlfriends. I wanna hangout, gossip and get drunk with them!
Life isnt going on well cause its very dull... I miss having fun.
Lately ive been thinking so hard what am i gonna do now, after this i'll not meet you again eventhough we stay near each other but what if you completely forget about me when we graduate.
Its not fair . I wanna spent much more times with you and laugh about stupid things and mistake but nahh now no more whats with another 3 days which im left okay if i were to add up chalet n grad nite that will be another six days, den what happens after that?
I wonder will you still remember me an all the stupid jokes we laughed at.
Common i know i wont be that affected but sadly i am!
Sadly, i'll remember everything for life.
Maybe you dont knw how much you mean in my life but yeahhh you mean.
You never fail to make me laugh.
Im gonna go a distance
From u now cause it will eventually gone one day. I pray for the best for you.
If only its from the start. I never will be this way.
I'll miss you i promise.

Labels: You'll always be in my mind.

Its been so damn long ever since i updated this blog of mine...
over that period of time so many things changed.too many stories to tell.
i dont know where to start.
well. lifes harder now.i wonder how much longer still i cn cope..
i miss the past when everythings the same and no one changed.
mayb everything just happens.
nothing can be done....
its hard to say but its harder to keep it in heart.
i wish i have someone to talk to..
and yes i deactivated my facebook account ,reason being no use cause its just so disheartening now a day.
i miss my friends.i miss bestfriends.
well i gotta pass that, cause i bet they DONT feel what i feel.
lets just hope time pass faster..
too bad for me.
i'll never forget any moments i spent with every each of them.
lifes unfair but nothing cn be done.

~there're better even without me.


love life, greatt....
i never wish for anything more den what i have now.
love, have been always the person who stayed with me no matter what.
he will always be there whenever i needed someone to talk to,but its not the same cause somethings cant be shared like we share seeetupidd jokes,gossips,enemies,take funny pictures and even we caant share panties.its just not the same though...
well whatever it is love is always there.even at this point of time when his with his friends he still text me, like a sentence without any fullstops .

~Things just arent the same noww....

Labels: i'll be fine.

okay,life isnt easy and that goes too love.
but he came and make everything easier.maybe i'm just lucky and its just my luck..but i thank god for all this.mayb i used to felt love but i never learn anything frm it now with him in my life...i know everything will be okay,alright.
i dont know what to call this feelings of mine but i know its not for long.cause we're both like earth and the sky.
yes i looked forward for every meeting with you.i'll smile and my heart jumps.
mayb its true i fall to deeply inlove.i dont wish you to go ever cause ive been waiting to be with you ever since camp.once upon a time ago.
mayb just mayb i didnt fall for you and we're never in the same class all this will never happen.
things happen for a reason.you came pulling me out from the hole that i fall over and over again.i swear i dont really shed my tears now a days maybe because you never fail to make me smile.
sacrifice.
dont do that i dont want.be happy..
i'll always be here to support you in whatever you do.i promise.cause you've always been there for me in times i need you the most.and i thank you for that so much..
maybe just maybe.
once i tot we can only be friends but now we're more den friends i just wish that it will remain this way.i hope,but if not i'll not be sad cause i get to know a great person like you.
you're my boyfriend,you're my friend,you're my bestfriend,you're the person who always been there to takecare,love and understand me..thank you so muchh.
i really appreciate it all dear.

Labels: To Raden Dandiar.